Purpose

I feel like I spend most of my time worrying about things instead of enjoying life. I always get thoughts in my head which consume me. I'm 30 and I feel like I havent accomplished much in my life. People my age usually have alot under their belt like their own home...a family...husband/wife...children...financial stability....When I look at myself, I feel like such a failure. These thought and feelings come in waves. Its always there in my mind, but its usually an up and down thing.

What is my purpose here on earth? I feel like a waste of space. I feel like I have not made any kind of contribution to this world....What am I doing here?

Someone told me that things I start, I usually never complete. Wow...is it that obvious? I knew that already. I just didnt know that people saw that too! It just reassures me that I've failed. I've failed with everything I start...from the smallest thing like a simple project around the house, to being healthier, to a failed marriage.

I wish I could be happy. But no one ever really is...So i just wish I can find peace within myself.