Lost!

I thought I was on the right road to happiness. I got lost.

I thought I was heading the right way. I think I missed my turn. Or maybe its still miles away. I hate getting my hopes up when I think this is it...i'm on the right track. I'm almost there. But I took the wrong exit. Crap! not again.

I know it seems as if all I do is complain. And that i'm not a happy person. I'm just on an up and down road. I'm not suicidal...but if i died i wouldnt mind. I can be overdramatic. But I really feel like I have no purpose here in life...that i'm just a waste of space. I'm the person who happy successful people look at and talk about what a mess of a person I am.

I once heard that contentment is easier to get to....but how do i get there? I need directions.

I dont know why...

...people say things that they dont really mean!?!... Is it because they dont want to dissapoint me or because they dont want to hurt my feelings? I can understand that. But think about it...in the end, when the real truth comes out, its gonna be worse for me. Its because you lied to me and got my hopes up. At least if you tell me the truth now, it wont seem so bad and I wont have gotten my hopes and dreams up!

It never fails...once you think things are turning for the better...something always has to knock you down.

Thanks alot!