Lost!

I thought I was on the right road to happiness. I got lost.

I thought I was heading the right way. I think I missed my turn. Or maybe its still miles away. I hate getting my hopes up when I think this is it...i'm on the right track. I'm almost there. But I took the wrong exit. Crap! not again.

I know it seems as if all I do is complain. And that i'm not a happy person. I'm just on an up and down road. I'm not suicidal...but if i died i wouldnt mind. I can be overdramatic. But I really feel like I have no purpose here in life...that i'm just a waste of space. I'm the person who happy successful people look at and talk about what a mess of a person I am.

I once heard that contentment is easier to get to....but how do i get there? I need directions.